Soccer in the rain !!!

Month of may… hot weather… endsem exams… and then suddenly you get to know from one of status messages that its raining outside… whats more, the same fellow, whose message I read, comes down to my room, takes out the football… simply tells me “main toh bas bheegne jaa raha hun… mast ekdum“… his intention less invitation is simply irresistible… you even dont listen to ur other frnd, “abe bimmar pad jayoge…exam hai bhai “…..u just simply let yourself go…  everyone comes out of the room..some more join us…and here we go !!! “kani ball de”… “rok ankur rok”…..”kk center main”…”manki wing main aa“….and you just dont know  when you soaked in the rain.

This is IITR for me…. this is something I tried, I learned, and I enjoyed….this is something I owe to my friends here… this is something which will never make me forget u all !!! But then every moment in not like ‘soccer in rain’… & you cant always let yourself go free like that…. & then when you start something you have to end it !!! Probably because if it wouldn’t have been this way… you wouldn’t have cherished these moments ! Life always blesses us with such moments… what we need, just someone whom you can enjoy with !!!

Feeling a bit pain in my foot but  VLSI preparation is still on and I still need your wishes! and by the way the person in the first scene was KK.

[V]ery [L]ow [S]coring but [I]nteresting preparation !!!

You know every time when there were endsem exams, my room scenario used to be somewhat like this… me on the bed surrounded by my book… looking at the watch, calculating the final remaining hours… mentally taking notes of what to do, how much to do… listenig to Twarit and Goyal how much they have completed (usually during the dinner time on previous night) and then everytime cursing myself why the hell I wasted my time. I used to be at half the syllabus when they both have almost finished it. & by god uske baad kya rail banti thi meri …huuuhh!!! The problem was, during exams I always remember lots of things which I need to do but usually I never remember them. This post is also one of those things. This time no Twarit, no Goyal is there and thats why I have actually put my thoughts into actions.

I still remember my first endsem exam that of chemistry. Goyal and Twarit they had already completed the syllabus on previous night and I was still struggling with physical chemistry only. Kanu came to my room just about 3-4 hours before the exam and you can still ask him how the scene was there in my room. Physics was disaster from my point of view, (though I got B+) & that was due to last remains of what we call ‘JEE-effect’. Second endsem was more disciplined from my side and I really did well in maths & physics. Third mid term was the first when I got a seven point nine two CG, got my first B grade and someone said to me “ab tu bhi hami main aa gaya hai” . But fourth endsem was really a relief in that sense and this was the endsem when I saw her during each exam on my way to exam hall but no idea at all who she was. Well fifth endsem would have been memorable one in positive sense had it not been Sinha Sir’s paper… really it changed the whole equation and I got my first C+. This was also the first time I got A+ in any of my academic subjects(in Linear ICs). Sixth endsem was the one when I really didn’t work that much hard, as I was more busy in making my US trip plans. Seventh endsem saw me clear DSP which was the most fearsome (but not difficult ) subject I had in IITR. & here is the last endsem when I m writing my first post during exams !!!

Well VLSI exam is there and this time no Twarit no Goyal, to help me out. So pls wish me good luck !!! I really need it !

Life….not so beautiful, always!!!

Among the various existing troubles, the new one added to the list is “Bathroom Renovation”. Its been about a week since we were forced to infiltrate cross-border bathroom and to share that single bathroom with more than 60 boys and now the pleasure of using so ‘near & dear’ bathroom now seems to be among cherished moments. Add to this, the electric water heater gives the full “220V attractive alternate current” shocks, as Maheshwari got one this morning. So the little hopes, of having a bath in at least 2 days, seems to be diminishing now. Everytime while going to mess or canteen or classes, I pause for a moment near this new restroom area, to decide whether is there any small probability that I may need to go there now or in near future??? And a “yes” means, this is the perfect time to go there. Further add to this, the new musicians aka ‘workers’ who really are sometimes even worse than the hammers they use!!! To make things more spicy, there is ‘surprise’ quize in class, with no clue at all, which are really framed to make students surprise like “aaayelllaaaaa… ye kya hai bhai!!!!!”. Most of us are like….kya yaar, kya panga hai life main!!! Considering the already existing schedule, isn’t everything seems ‘perfect’ for ‘not-so-beautiful-life’ ????

But wait…..Life is not about using the distant bathrooms or going through hectic schedules or facing some tough exams….I was coming back after DSP tut and as I reached my room I saw a child of age about 1-1.5 yr who was sleeping just outside my room without any thing much to sleep on, barely a single piece of cloth and the hard floor beneath it. His mother instead of ‘renovating’ his child’s future, must be renovating this bathroom to earn his piece of bread. The child, among the various footsteps every now & then, still is enjoying his sleep. His future is lying somewhere in these renovation works, absolutely no tension of future prospects…isn’t it?

The other day, while I was coming out of mess…it was Sunday and we had got apples…. suddenly out of 10-12 children, standing near the mess-gate, one of the girls asked, “seb dede”…..I just looked at her eyes which were so full of hopes of enjoying that apple…even I was no longer able to see in those eyes, which were making me feel ashamed somewhere…I passed that apple to her but then, is that enough on my part???

You must be thinking that I m getting ‘senti’……& I know that its not the first time I m getting to know all this & even after a few days I’ll forget everything about it….. but until when u can ignore all this, even when someone is just lying at ur doorsteps?? For these people life is NOT “not-so-beautiful-life” but actually its “NOT beautiful” for them……If you have read this till now I want ur serious comments on this please! Are these just the vicarious feelings I m getting…..I know I may not do anything much for them but does that mean I should even stop these feelings! Cant we actually do anything for them or is this just their ‘fate’!!!

Dementors……Patronas works!!!!

Just completed Harry Potter and Deathly Hallows…….actually was waiting for its hard copy….. JKR falls a bit short of expectations (at least mine)……… especially Elder wand…. not well thought of. One thing which I really appreciate about  Potter series is it always tries to personify or materialise ur feelings….. lets say dementors…….everyone of us must have encountered them………as I did a few days back. But as they say u need a patronas to defend urself……& for me patrons is “Satisfaction”……. you dont always do, what u r ‘supposed’ to do….. or rather u dont want to do, what u r ‘supposed’ to do……. but sometimes u still end up in doing what u were ‘supposed’ to do, no matter u wanted it or not and that  gives stuff  for these dementors!!!

This feeling of satisfaction is somewhere lost….. being replaced by this ‘make it finish’…… & one even doesn’t realize when does this change take place? But then to err is human…so was Dumbledore….so was Harry…so am I…..and that does simply mean I m still another human being.  I always thought that its would be much easy ,when u grow up, to choose among the various options … without even realizing that the options too go on increasing….. then helps this satisfaction to decide you what u want to do…..not what u r supposed to do!

Some of my friends say why I should take things like that…. its better not to worry about all this and always enjoy ‘whatever I have got’. But then life is not only happiness…it also comes with sorrow….comes with ups and downs……so its ‘life’ to be enjoyed & that can’t be enjoyed unless u dont go through ups as well as downs!!! Anyways India won the T20 world cup…..congratulations to all of u…..the match was again full of ups and downs & thats why enjoyable!!!!

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